http://mandyomgbbq.psychcentral.net seeing again Mon, 06 Apr 2009 16:17:18 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I've been put on Lexapro about a week ago. I think it may be making a difference, but I've been told I should wait longer to judge. Yet I feel myself stuck in between blue and white, depressed and happy. I'm no longer sinking into the deep blue sea of ... http://mandyomgbbq.psychcentral.net/2009/04/06/caught-between-the-sky-and-sea/ It's amazing how I am spending every waking moment thinking about one person. How did this happen? Was this supposed to happen? What if I'm going down thhe wrong path? Last I checked, this is not how my life was supposed to go. Who threw out the manual? Apparently I did, ... http://mandyomgbbq.psychcentral.net/2008/11/19/an-excerpt-from-my-journal/ Memories can be moving to our very souls. I had an extensive conversation last night with someone. Several memories were exchanged which brought back a rush of feelings I had long forgotten. "I feel like everything I tell you guys goes in one ear and out the other." I am still struggling with ... http://mandyomgbbq.psychcentral.net/2008/10/24/if-you-talk-to-much-my-head-will-explode/ Last night, it finally hit me. I've been forcing myself to stay strong and not let myself give in the feeling, but it happened. It hit me that summer is over. Crossroads is over until next summer. Granted I will return for the winter retreat, but that seems so distant ... http://mandyomgbbq.psychcentral.net/2008/09/02/the-beginning-of-my-life/ I have been absent for almost a week, and I just returned home last night. Thoughts buzzed around inside my head so fast that it felt like days and days worth of thoughts flew by in a few hours. I drove around my neighborhood for at ... http://mandyomgbbq.psychcentral.net/2008/07/26/candles-and-tears/     Trust is such a difficult concept to seize. I doubt that it will ever be prevalent in ANYONE'S life, because through one way or another, everyone has experienced difficulties with trust. But I think I have finally found someone whom I can trust. This feeling is so...renowned. I've been ... http://mandyomgbbq.psychcentral.net/2008/07/16/seeing-again/